A LONELY MAN?
He doesn’t believe he’s lonely
But that is what was said…
He strives to be for her only,
Something else goes on in his head.
Alone, he’ll smile and wink at most,
Especially at the girls…
Be kind and gentle–the younger ones
He proclaims valuable pearls.
When with his wife he’s quiet,
Not sullen, most of the time…
He lets her be the icebreaker
For which she is more inclined.
He gave up social groups for her
Except the church and stayed home…
Sitting around isn’t the same,
As exciting places to roam.
He is afraid of going out
And chancing being led…
Away from his love for life,
But it’s happened in his head.
Sometimes it gets too much for him
To wait on her hand and foot…
He feels encaged and gets enraged,
And feels misunderstood.
She can only do so much,
Her levels of pain are real…
The times when she’s feeling good
Are precious few times to steal!
He plods again from day-to-day,
Doing the best he can…
While building up inner dismay
About the daily plan.
He holds back something and blames her,
A secret sticking point…
Something years back was happy to stir
And she knocked it out of joint.
Forgiving her hasn’t happened yet,
Lip service only has he
Given to this, while bitterness rests
Apart from their sanctity.
It makes him sarcastic and not very nice
When betrayal seems so strong…
He’s gone back to fantasy more than twice,
Then acts just to get along.
Trite sayings hardly matter,
He hears them with disdain…
He’s in the present–can’t go back–
To find respect again.
He believes in God’s forgiveness,
Even for those who feel caged…
Yet theory seems too much to bear
When one only gets enraged.
He wishes see a healing
Come forth on rising wings…
The Son of Righteousness* can give
The answer to his longings.
* Sun (Son) of Righteousness…Malachi 4:2